LONELINESS IN THE CONTEXT OF LONG LIVE ROMANCE

( I wrote this at the end of my residency at “Long Live Romance” – International workshop in art and performance, Macerata, Marche, Italy, 29th April – 16th May 2009, curated by Franko B )

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LONELINESS IN THE CONTEXT OF LONG LIVE ROMANCE

Almost 500 words by Polyxeni Canditi Dalloway Stavrou

suitcase when does one pack their suitcase and go? first day. I want to go (16) (17) (18) (19) (20) (21) (22) (23) (24) I am falling in love with everybody I expect something from them What? (38) I go out for a smoke (45) (46) I do not trust you You can let me down I do not trust you (62) (63) (64) (65) (66) (67) (68) We drink together (72) (73) (74) (75) (76) I retire in my room in the attic It is good for me to be on my own for a while. I have a drink I smoke I want to go home (109) (110) (111) (112) (113) (114) (115) (116) (117) (118) I still want to go but I do not It is interesting I go out for a smoke (137) (138) (139) (140) Why is everybody else here? We don’t share the same reasons We only share the desire to be here But Why? I still want to go but I do not (171) (172) (173) (174) (175) (176) (177) (178)
it is a risk that we take together Is It? Why are we here? I have my head saved by everybody (200) If nobody notices what you do has it really happened? transformation (212) (213) (214) (215) (216) that we all rise together above the measures of one human being What do the others want? I am not sure I go out for a smoke (244) I go out for a smoke Somebody else goes leaves It is not me. (259) (260) it is not easy (265) (266) (267) (268) insomnia Panic Attack I drink (274) I suspect we stop with death (281) I look into your work I look into your soul I think I want Do I look into your soul First Risk In the middle of the night Almost nobody noticed Question: Not only where do we start but also where do we stop Where do we stop Insomnia Panic Attack I drink I am learning a lot Are we together in this (345) I go out for a smoke Where do we stop (356) (357) (358) (359) we are all very different It is not easy Insomnia Panic Attack (372) (373) Second Risk Where do we stop? (380) I masturbate. I respect you (386) I am alone with your memory now It unites us But me alone Clarity. I masturbate Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear Fear transformation Third Risk I have let everybody know I am still alone with your memory I have to face it alone (439) I go out for a smoke You are free now We look for communication To be acknowledged accepted noticed understood caressed inspired competed insecure motivated trusted challenged supported important interesting useful tender (472) disappointed desired influenced hopeful brave inventive loved loved loved alive alive not dead alive not dead against injustice together together Not Alone WE GO NOW. ON OUR OWN

In total 72 words not found around the issue of loneliness in the context of Long Live Romance.
The unfound words were the following:
16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 38, 45, 46, 62, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67, 68, 72, 73, 74, 75, 76, 109, 110, 111, 112, 113, 114, 115, 116, 117, 118, 137, 138, 139, 140, 171, 172, 173, 174, 175, 176, 177, 178, 200, 212, 213, 214, 215, 216, 244, 259, 260, 265, 266, 267, 268, 274, 281, 345, 356, 357, 358, 359, 372, 373, 380, 386, 439, 472

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